Most times we hold back from something beautiful because we fear what will come of us when we finally have to let go.
You’ve ever met that one person with whom you have such a genuine connection, like your hearts and souls have known each other for eternity? You relate with them so effortlessly, your conversations flow so freely and there are no awkward silent moments between the two of you because when your lips stop moving your hearts are still in sync?
I have that person.
And when I realised what this really is, fear crept in.
Nothing lasts forever. One day the conversations will stop. The phone will not beep with their texts, or their names appear on my call log. One day, all this will just be a memory, a story in my heart, a song in the threshold of my soul.
One day I will be faced with the excruciating task of letting go of something I had cultured myself to so tightly hold on to.
So what do I do? Do I let my fear rule? Do I distance myself, loosen my grip on the butterflies and resort to just watching them from a distance? Will this be a show of strength or weakness?
When you try to protect your heart, is it ‘bravo!’ or is it ‘shame on you coward’ ?
I might be wrong. Maybe this will never end. Maybe this friendship is meant to be, blessed by the heavens and placed on earth to bloom.
Maybe this, this thing I fear, IS IT!
We can never protect our hearts enough. You don’t push away something good, something so beautiful because you fear.
What are we here for, if it is not to love and be broken, to heal and love again?
Whether it lasts or not is not the matter. The matter is, IT HAPPENED.
And we will rejoice and be glad.